yes another post today....sorry if its somehow emo~
and yes im sorry all that im being so emo today.
im neither angry or what.
it's no one fault the problem still lies with me.
i dont blame anyone because everyone is playful~.
i dont know why its just that i cant control my emotion.
it sounds so stupid i suppose i tried to control it at times..
but it failed badly.
talked to laura few hours ago.
something like this happen 2 years ago.
but that emotion was so much worse than today.
i dont know how i should say about it.
but im sorry for what happen.
okay its sounds so stupid that i gonna say this.
yes me and andrew is close.but our relationship is as normal as friend.
nothing would go more than that i swear.
and things is getting more and more worse each day.
he is an awesome friend to me. no more than that that's all.
i dont mind rumors~ but... limits please.
and so thats all im going to say about this.
no doubts , i do have alot of awesome friend when im in poly.
and yes not forgetting those that had always been there for so long~
i dont know how to express myself at times and therefore i gave the wrong reaction.
and times where i cant control myself.. i do have attitude problems.
and times i couldnt control my emotion .. and i still cant control till now.
and times i couldnt control my tears... where i can cry easily over some small stuff.
and times i dont know for what reason that im violent but i dont mean it...
i really dont know why im that violent.
and times i dont know why i would be using some vulgar but i really dont mean it.
i had vulgars all attacking my brain when im at work...im really sorry for that.
and so im so super sorry to anyone out there that met with all this.
feeling so down today and talked to jing wei.
im really tired of my life that i felt so much like giving up.
its never easy.
im feeling tired of my life.
and last im sorry for being so emo today.
lesson cancelled for today because yesterday there's test.
went school for project but i did nothing at all.
and went to CO for less than 3 hours and back home.
feeling so tired but im not going to sleep.
and yes another thing , i wouldnt want a relationship now.
so dont bother asking me some stupid stuff like
"will you like .... " and so on stuff. im seriously not interested.
there is so many girls out there is so awesome.
adeline is just someone that have so many problems and no one will like :)
ADEL
