Wednesday, June 30, 2010 | 11:27 PM
i missed them :(
aww. i hate thursday :( starts at 8 and ends at 5 with 1 hour break :(
and there is marketing and accounting. >.<
im so demoralize by my recent grades. blame on myself for not studying :(
it was dam sad :( where my goal is still very far. what a sad thing.
guess im pretty slacking >.<
and die die die i must maintain my GPA i cant afford to drop that
guess time management is VERY IMPORTANT now.
okay after this week im going to write finish all my notes so i can study when the study break is here. im not sure if i can do it. i need the motivation like the past.
i guess McDonald is still the best like last time.
hmms shall start my work before i really regret it alot.
because i get to choose i found myself enjoying the instrument :)
ADEL
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Tuesday, June 29, 2010 | 11:05 PM
SWOLLEN EYES! :( dam sad.my eyes was in pain the whole night !
so thinking of changing this blog skins.
but im not so free to get it done perhaps , im just that lazy.
i've no idea what happen to me that im always not enough of sleep.
slept for freaking 9 hours but i still couldn't concentrate on my work.
oh man and so do i need a sleeping day? sleep a full day..
not a bad idea tho..
awesome? i failed ITSM as expected. failed like.... first module test i failed. LOL
but i've no idea was it my problem or what this sem.
result was like hell. there is totally no A in all my modules.
but sadly its B & C this happens when i dont have math in my life! hahahs.
guess need to really buck up. but even if i dont work for now...
CO took up almost all of my time...
upcoming concert [updated]
-July 13 [lunch time concert]
-Aug 4 [national day concert * not confirm]
-Aug 7 [ YOG performance]
-Aug 13[Annual Concert]
-Aug 22[Youth Festival Performance]
-Dec 12 [Beautiful Sunday]
-Dec ?? [Recording for 15th annivesary]
look at the performance alone. it kills.
when there is more performance ; there is more practice :(
Projects to be done :
-OOP
-ITSM
-IADP
Module to study :
- ERP
- ITSM
- Networking
poly life.. needed to manage your time well i suppose :(
gzz. should wake up from my dream and really start working on school work.
if not my GPA will drop like nobody business >.<
hmms from tomorrow i shall start writing out all my notes.
i've got plenty of time at CO tomorrow.
unless mr mike is going thru Andrew Lloyd Webber Medley
but other than that song guess nothing much for me tomorrow.
shall start with ITSM as thats the most pointless and stupid module.
okay my eyes in pain and i shall get some rest.
tho i've slept in the bus from school till home >.<
ADEL
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Thursday, June 24, 2010 | 11:31 PM
hmms.. keep forgetting that i wanted to post this.few days back~ someone asked me 1 question.
"If were to let you choose between relationship and work which will you choose?"
and yes my reply was " work "
and i told that guy , without a stable income it wont be easy in life :)
- you will need to pay phone bills , have your meals , your transportation and so on..
without a partner you can always find in later years .
its never good to rush into a relationship thats true :)
as what i've seen in some of my friends...
some people who is afraid of getting hurt tends to play around.
but at times they do realize they felt lonely without a partner as they are not studying anymore.
and times they felt like settling down.. which isnt a bad idea at all.
some has already at least between 20-24 years old.
hms getting some sleep nights all :)
ADEL
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Wednesday, June 23, 2010 | 11:37 PM
CO is killing me like hell. great hell i suppose.
hopes that july never come.
i'll be much busy when july come.
EVERY...
tue-fri night 630 got CO practice.
sat 930am - 5pm CO practice.
Aug 10-12 10am-10pm CO practice.
oh man it sucks :(
enjoy to my fullest today actually :)
its been long since i have a time for myself almost the whole day.
went home with charis , shared alot of stuffs.
yes i admit that i let something go where i shouldnt.
im not stupid but just that i think it shouldnt be carried on.
FRIENDS
Sometimes in life, you find a special friend. Someone who changes your life just by being a part of it. Someone who makes you laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes you believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces you that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for you to open it. This is forever friendship. When you're down and the world seems dark and empty, your forever friend lifts you up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. Your forever friend gets you through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If you turn and walk away, your forever friend follows. If you lose your way, your forever friend guides you and cheers you on. Your forever friend holds your hand and tells you that everything is going to be okay. And if you find such a friend, you feel happy and complete because you need not worry. You have a forever friend, and forever has no end.
“You can think I'm wrong, but that's no reason to quit thinking.”
ADEL
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Tuesday, June 22, 2010 | 11:58 PM
staff party yesterday.worked a total of 12 hours. leg pain like hell.
staff party was alright.
met ping and KLP ppls :)
yes and i saw huili there. last time i saw her was 3 years ago.
it was pretty boring actually for staff party.
but meeting up old friends is awesome :)
gzz . forced to drink thanks to fyon~
and i've been so busy walking around hahahs!
cab home with xiaoyan and slept for 3 hours and off to school.
i dont know why until now im still awake.
but i know im real tired inside.
me and andrew manage to finish the ITSM report i suppose.
but almost done :)
he taught me OOP and reformatted my lappy thanks alot :)
thanks xinjie's company just now appreciated alot ! :)
When things are not going your way...?
When you're in the midst of struggle and doubt (in yourself, abilities, wanting in life), what is it that gives you the strength to strive for better?
Is it self worth?- knowing that someday this will all behind you?
Is it pride?
What is it?
For those of you that never give up and never quit fighting for yourselves(even when your lost, or in a rut or figuring out life), what is it- that "je ne sais quoi " that keeps you jumping hurdles when its is not working out the way it should?
and yes Things happened for a reason. :)
Forgive and Forget :)
We attach our feelings to the moment when we were hurt, endowing it with immortality. And we let it assault us every time it comes to mind. It travels with us, sleeps with us, hovers over us while we make love, and broods over us while we die. Our hate does not even have the decency to die when those we hate die--for it is a parasite sucking OUR blood, not theirs. There is only one remedy for it. [forgiveness]
ADEL
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Saturday, June 19, 2010 | 11:10 PM
readers will find it stupid but im just too bored :)watching too much drama can kill :) hahasjust that drama dont come true in life :) it would be awesome if behind all mean guys they are all warm hearted >.< working was tiring. a total of 5 floor staff today...it seems alot right? 4 of them at around 12 plus 1 all busy with function.i was busy with K Lunch customer.last call , clear bento and do bill.but still alright henry and eugene helped me :)austin and kenny was the 2 incharge for the function eugene helping them also.. and henry was actually runner>.< but everything was alright. :) was so busy till around 2 plus. cant remember.
then finally had my breakfast :( pity my stomach...
the busy thing was the function...
there is 1 room ; part of the function , they trying to be funny.
they got 12 cups in their room and they say all they want.
and they ordered additional 26 cups of hot milo. for additional info..
there is less than 10 ppl in that room. pretty.....
james came down today. he called me "fei cai " the whole day.
felt so much of killing him hahas.
when i said i want to complain to my bro that he bully me..
he replied " your bro always bully me thats why i can bully u "
slap him! >.<>
everyone asking me to go staff party... should i go?
next week schedule is pretty tight.
monday: working 2-10 *staff party at 3am
tuesday: project and CO
wednesday: project and CO
thursday: project and CO
friday: working 2-10
sat : working 11-7
sun: working 11-7
in additional i need to touch up on OOP and so on..
im still very busy~ felt so tired already.
that all i suppose.
ADEL
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Tuesday, June 15, 2010 | 9:40 AM
Finally a day for myself after like so dam long.
woke up and realize its raining. slept awhile more.
saw mum when i woke up and i was asking her out.
it's been long ever since i went out with her.
no idea where we will be heading to later:)
working for me was alright , but i fell myself slacking more than working
its just like im getting tired of this work place.
everything change and nothing is the same.
i wont be shock if someday i want to resign.. because there is nothing that make me stay.
everyone is leaving .
but if i were to work in night shift everything may be different.
my close ones are all working at night .
but just that im able to work with them .
but for a second thought , i need money and benson is willing to give me schedule.
i still can take if for a moment :)
met winnie ytd. i've promise to go out with her long ago.
yesterday was really awesome :) miss hanging out with her like the past :)
tho she make me feel so embarrass hahas.
1 promise down. still got meiyan , yuwen , suetmei , jackson , laura , jia hui , melody
guess thats all. and i've book andrew to help me to reformat my lappy.
but guess it should be next week.
i see things happen like what i've just been through.
things started to fade easily when 1 party starts to be busy.
cheer up my dear :)
everything is just a part of life.
ADEL
found things interesting in lihui's blog :)
THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON
It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are.
The thing i'm lacking of is actually COURAGE.
Dear courage, please be with me when i need you.
You told me that all things are difficult before they are easy.
You told me that as long as i'm breathing i'm not failing.
You told me not to cry because it's over and smile because it happened.
You told me that everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end.
You told me that as long as my hearts still holds on, hope is never really gone.
And lastly, you told me that things happen for a reason... should i believe?
EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road your trudging seems all up hill,
And when you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must... but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns.
Don't give up though the pace seems slow.
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
The ones that love you most are usually the ones that hurt you most.
I'm tired of what happened, seriously.
I didn't want to admit cause it was easier to lie.
Cause by hiding it I'll smile instead of cry.
So give me some time, I guess I'll be alright...
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Wednesday, June 09, 2010 | 12:14 AM
yes another post today....sorry if its somehow emo~
and yes im sorry all that im being so emo today.
im neither angry or what.
it's no one fault the problem still lies with me.
i dont blame anyone because everyone is playful~.
i dont know why its just that i cant control my emotion.
it sounds so stupid i suppose i tried to control it at times..
but it failed badly.
talked to laura few hours ago.
something like this happen 2 years ago.
but that emotion was so much worse than today.
i dont know how i should say about it.
but im sorry for what happen.
okay its sounds so stupid that i gonna say this.
yes me and andrew is close.but our relationship is as normal as friend.
nothing would go more than that i swear.
and things is getting more and more worse each day.
he is an awesome friend to me. no more than that that's all.
i dont mind rumors~ but... limits please.
and so thats all im going to say about this.
no doubts , i do have alot of awesome friend when im in poly.
and yes not forgetting those that had always been there for so long~
i dont know how to express myself at times and therefore i gave the wrong reaction.
and times where i cant control myself.. i do have attitude problems.
and times i couldnt control my emotion .. and i still cant control till now.
and times i couldnt control my tears... where i can cry easily over some small stuff.
and times i dont know for what reason that im violent but i dont mean it...
i really dont know why im that violent.
and times i dont know why i would be using some vulgar but i really dont mean it.
i had vulgars all attacking my brain when im at work...im really sorry for that.
and so im so super sorry to anyone out there that met with all this.
feeling so down today and talked to jing wei.
im really tired of my life that i felt so much like giving up.
its never easy.
im feeling tired of my life.
and last im sorry for being so emo today.
lesson cancelled for today because yesterday there's test.
went school for project but i did nothing at all.
and went to CO for less than 3 hours and back home.
feeling so tired but im not going to sleep.
and yes another thing , i wouldnt want a relationship now.
so dont bother asking me some stupid stuff like
"will you like .... " and so on stuff. im seriously not interested.
there is so many girls out there is so awesome.
adeline is just someone that have so many problems and no one will like :)
ADEL
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Tuesday, June 08, 2010 | 4:33 AM
1 more paper and 1 more presentation and there comes my holiday.okay its super late. had another mahjong session.
its been long since i played.
but wasnt really good. i lost quite alot but not as much if i compare.
but the enjoyment was there.
tml there is no class so need to meet bryan and andrew they all at 1pm.
for IADP project. hopes it goes well~
going for CO at night.
thats all for later on activities
today's test was alright. should be able to pass.
argh i still prefer ms tan tho~
every little thing in life wont be anything that you expected.
never expect things to go your way.
yes an " argument " on if i will like a particular guy today.
sounds stupid to me.
my answer was very clear and i swear its a NO.
but somehow someone replied back. "you wont know next minute if you will."
but the thing is at least i know i didnt for now.
when u realize that you really like him/her ...
2 ways that people will think~
1) if i dont confess i will regret in the future
2) if i confess and what if i got rejected?
thats the main point.
there is always no wrong or right in this situation.
but by judgement you cant put in the conclusion cause you wont know whats true.
a limits that set by me.. no relationship till i graduated.
okay pretty awesome. but i never know if i can do that.
you cant always choose what you want isnt it?
yes , you love him ... but it doesnt means that he need to love you.
thats the fact.
not every single thing will go as we like.
hmms. guess till here :)
nights all :)
ADEL
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Sunday, June 06, 2010 | 1:43 AM
i know i should be sleeping now as i told randy.he guessed i will only go sleep around 2. he's right :)
nah~ after wash up ... will be a little more awake. hahas.
working was pretty fine today..
first time i so clever that i went to help everyone buy their food and forgot mine :(
today last day working with ivan coz im working morning tml ..
he love bullying me thats what he said but no reason why >.<
and yes thanks jin yao for helping me carry so many things just now:)
and yes i know why i fall sick . coz i didnt sleep.
my throat was feeling better and im still awake now makes me feel its getting worse.
oh man :(
and i suppose to study OOP and im too tired :(
tomorrow go home must STUDY! :(
finished packing my brother drawers. found something:)
okay thats all :)
ADEL
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Thursday, June 03, 2010 | 2:18 PM
cried a pool of tears. the very first time.
i guess i spent around 4 hours on that.
finding the right way to do the configuration..
but software got corrupted. imagine the "awesome" feelings.
felt so terrible at that time.
if i didnt study and got this i wont be so dam sad because of it.
but it just simply i learn everything slowly and find out the things slowly
search from net and book hope i can get it. but thanks to the runtime error..
it make me redo bloody 3 times and didnt get to continue :(
tho its just simply 10% but i really made the efforts to learn it.
felt so down after that.
ITSM test was like hell too.
so we should actually just memorise the revision question
thats pretty dumb.
im really tired.
there is still ERP test tomorrow.
i must go CO tonight.
skipped 2 times already . so i must go tonight >.<
meeting laura around 5 i suppose.
1 more week to go i'll have my break.
but u'll see me busy with work and CO. zzZ
once it reach holidays..
its also project time >.<
ADEL
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Wednesday, June 02, 2010 | 10:47 PM
gzz. die dying dead.okay didnt sleep enough ytd and today in class.
totally dead! not in the mood to do WAD and IADP.
gzzzz >.<
tomorrow straight test. 8am - netcomm lab test 11am - ITSM theory test.
this 2 killed all my brain cells already.
there is still ERP on friday. :(
didnt go CO for 2 days already must go tml.
felt so much like giving up now.
the whole of afternoon till now keep stressing on netcomm , haven even touch ITSM :(
die dying dead liao :(
last meal around 3 plus 4 no appetite to eat at all.
tho im feeling hungry now :(
was pretty pissed ytd.
and i might be wrong or what..
but thats the feeling i had once i knew it ytd..
when u all made your decision..
can u just tell me that im being assigned that instrument?
when everyone choose what they want... i didnt get to.
the reason is they never learn before so they want to learn.
but i didnt get to choose coz i wasnt there.
doesnt it seems unfair?
if i dont want that instru so i go fight with them for another 1?
they already choose what they want le why they want to change
for me i also wont want to change.
where im in the group everyone get to choose.
and im left with the one ppl dont want.
great feelings.
but whatever. not gonna care about that anymore.
not being bothered anymore if i wasnt given any songs.
so not going to care.
and now a short 15 mins im going back to study ITSM :)
god bless me
ADEL
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Tuesday, June 01, 2010 | 12:22 AM
awesome. i was doing my IADP :)research from internet on how to link the menu.kills my brain cells. arghh. and did some editing..im feeling tired now.today lesson was alright.skipped networking and off to eat at AMK.back to school and try to get chalet things done soon.difficult to plann~ argh.and the solution was to approach andrew thats what he said. LOL.hope it can go on well.another event.MJR 5A 2008.christmas party at Mr Han's house.a suggestion by him actually.hmms i started spreading a little out.anything drop me a message :)many things to be done before holidays.hope i dont screw things up.not attending CO on tue and wed i suppose.wed morning got IADP project assessmentthur morning 8am Networking lab testand straight after that 11am ITSM written test.Fri after break there is ERP written test.lucky the test isnt on thur if not all the way straight TEST! Its always good to have trust within each other when you are in a relationship.yes tho sometimes there is certain things that you dont trust. but its always good to have a good talk :) "Always look on the bright side of life"tho its easy to say difficult to do... but thats life.things that you need to learn i suppose.and yes somehow i did learn forgive and forget.and once you forgive and forget. learn from what happen.once you learn from the incident you will know what to react for future to prevent it to happen again.im refering to myself actually.okay i know im just crapping alot. ADEL
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i missed them :(